The Impulse of the Divine
Dear Friend,
- What are you really looking for, hoping for or expecting on this journey towards awakening and liberation?
- What made you step onto this journey in the first place, and what keeps you there?
These are rich questions, aren’t they. Denise and I will talk more about them on Tuesday on Evolutionary Women Radio Show. Please join us at 11AM PST.
Most of us run into a lot of challenges when we say Yes to this inner journey and may wonder at times why on earth we started and what we are doing here. What are we after?
When I said Yes to this inner impulse (the impulse of the Divine) many years ago, it wasn’t really like I had a choice. Choice was not an option. The impulse was so strong and enticing that nothing else mattered. All I knew was that I wanted to serve this impulse that I called God or Love. The words don’t really matter. It was the feeling that it gave me and all I could do was say Yes.
Even though plenty of challenges have made me wonder if I was on the right path, truth is, I still only want to serve this impulse. Its expression may look differently on different days in the way that I live my life. Some days I feel at peace no matter what happens, next day angry at someone who oversteps my boundaries, and then the following day in self reflection of what made me feel so upset.
The impulse itself drives me to be more and more Love in any situation that life brings. Not a doormat if someone disrespects my boundaries, but Love in the way I treat myself and respond to that person. Not angry at myself for getting angry, but with compassion for myself when I see a part that is still scared or hurting.
It is an ongoing following of this inner impulse and I keep ‘refining my ears’ to this mystery that wants my attention. In this process I have noticed so many things just dropping away and leaving me with a sense of well being and peace inside. Not always :), but more and more as the field of awareness gets cleared in my deep commitment to becoming mySelf.
For some reason this month’s daily blogs has been all about commitment so far. I can see why. Without a commitment to our own Self (even if we don’t know what that means or where it leads), we will stay committed to something outside of ourselves that can only bring confusion, loneliness and suffering.
I hope you have been following these blog and are inspired by them. As I write them, my message gets clearer and more alive and inspires me to keep committing over and over again. It is turning into a catch 22, but a good catch. One good thing builds on the other.
Please share your experiences on my blog posts or Facebook page. You can jump in on any of them. They do build on each other, but can certainly be read individually.
Thank you for being my fellow sojourners on this magical unfolding journey.
Talk to you on Tuesday?
I just finished my 6 CD set on Meditation and Mindfulness, that has been in the works for awhile. I have been teaching it at UCSC for about 5 years now, and wanted to turn it into a product so everybody can enjoy it. Stay tuned …
ALL Love,
Pernilla
Pernilla, Thank you for continuing to send me your email blogs, even though I am a man. This one, ‘The Impulse of the Devine’, really caught my attention and moved me to look at your blog site over the past month. You are exceptional! It is exactly where I am at right now, surrendered to the longing for the devine, instead of keeping that longing on the back burner while I cook up some other mediocre meal. I dive headlong into the pot and allow it to cook me to perfection.
I am continually surprised to find such profound alignments and harmonies in this world ‘reality’ that support my heart course. In reading your past month blogs (which I had not read before today!) I found not only that they echoed my awarenesses and discoveries, they also seemed to precisely coincide with the moment I had the particular clear insight. Either you are incredibly powerful, which by the way you are, or truly, linear time and space are hallucination.
It would be nice to chat sometime, Pernilla. It has been a tumultuous year for me, full of often traumatic metamorphous.The butterfly will emerge, she is our nature ! Kicking and screaming or fully abandoned, our little choice.
Amazing poetry has been flowing in to me and a novel is in the works.
Blessings dear fairy, Daniel Cryns
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NO OTHER
Brave Beautiful Soul
know you are Divine
The mountains shall move of their own
in reverence of your presence
The deep dark caverns of fears
are filled with light
brighter than day
the instant You venture through the gate
You are a beacon that shows the sun a mere candle flame
Laugh out loud for you know you can’t resist !
Fill this serious void with your mirth
The echoes will sound as lullabies
and embrace your precious heart
THERE IS NO OTHER
Soar completely naked in the sunlight of yourself
Revel in the masterpiece of your life
displayed on these “scary” cavern walls
No artisan has ever dreamed
of art like this
© Daniel Cryns 2008
Daniel, thank you so so much for sharing this. Isn’t it great to know that we are not alone in our unfolding expressions as we grow our Wings. I am always happy and inspired to read others’ similar experiences along our paths and the beauty of sharing them with each other.
What an inspiration you are. Your poetry is right up there with Rumi. I do hope you will share it with the world soon. I am grateful that you shared these ones on my blog. Thank you. Blessings to you.
All Love,
Pernilla