Longing IS Love

Dear Friend,

About 16 years ago during some deep shamanic work, I had a very powerful realization regarding the experience of longing. I found myself deeply unhappy and lonely as I was focusing on what I felt was missing in my life. I was crying: “I want this and I want that, I don’t want this and I don’t want that.” All the energy was pointing outside of me and this created a deep feeling of emptiness inside. That’s what made me feel so unhappy and by projecting that emptiness outside of me, I was hoping to find the solution to my pain. The person who was with me just allowed me to have this experience without interfering with it. That give me the space to really feel it to the core.

I did. I felt it to the core. As I was crying: “I want a partner, I don’t want to be alone, I want God, I want God to… (fill I the blank),” suddenly I noticed that my focus started going in the opposite direction: Inside! Suddenly I got really curious about what this longing was all about?! “What is this feeling of longing? What is it?” My attention followed it back to the root and guess what I found? LOVE.
This longing in my Heart was not meant to be projected outside of me, so I would find a solution to it out there! Is was meant to get my attention, so I could follow it in and listen to it. It was Spirit’s way of getting my attention and She finally did!

Something shifted deeply deeply within me that day and had never left. I realized that the actual experience of longing is Love!! It is not a painful thing to make me suffer. It is the beauty of how the divine expresses Herself to me to let me know she is here and guiding me. My whole relationship to deSire and longing changed that day. Longing = Love. Longing became my best friend. If I just feel that longing in my Heart and stay with that experience, everything is so sweet and tender and turns to love. On the other hand, if I let my mind interpret it and make me believe that it means something is missing… suffering fills my being.

The longing is for your own Self – the longing is your Self – your True Self that is calling you Home. Not for you to suffer. To fulfill you – fill you full with your Self. Fill you full with Love. Yes, my Friend, this longing is Love. Please don’t turn away from it again.

May I invite you to allow the longing and deSire in your Heart and Being to be fully experienced without putting an outside object on it? Just follow the feeling back inside, right to its Origin (Originator!) and see what happens?

I can’t wait to hear what you find. Please share with us.

ALL Love,
Pernilla

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